Brain Mush
I can now safely say that I have survived the SATs. Why did I put myself through a month of daily grind to prepare for a 4 hour exam I most probably don’t need to take anyway? Well, because I can. Because I can. And because I am completely insane. 3 hours of sleep, 2 grande coffees on an empty stomach, 3 toilet breaks and 8 sections into the exam, my heart rate shoots up and all I feel like doing is jumping on the table and shredding the answer booklet. Damn caffeine.
Now that that’s over, I have one week to get my act together. It seems surreal, to finally be leaving this place. Having completed my last A Level exam in June ’11, February ’12 seemed faraway. There was impatience, sure but mostly nonchalance. I wasn’t in a hurry to prepare myself for the journey ahead and now, I’ve got just over 7 days to up and fly the coop. Where did my 9 months go? Why did I waste it the way I did?
It’s funny how, when I was plenty younger, I couldn’t wait to finally leave; to be independent and to finally live on my own, free from any parental restrictions. But now, as I draw closer to the day I finally get on the plane, I grow more and more reluctant to leave. This place, this has been my home for almost 18 years. Home is where the heart is and in it, my family. The longest I have been away from my family was during my 2 week Beijing/Inner Mongolia school tour and now, I’ll be away from them for God knows how long. The friendships I’ve forged throughout all these years, will they last the distance? All my friends who stood by me when I was in need, I can’t leave them either. If only I can take everyone with me.
I am afraid but in a way, excited. Excited to finally start anew, doing something that I really really like. Finally doing something that I want to do. Ahead of me is a huge unknown and I don’t know what awaits me. Jump in!


















































